It took me a while to get back to blogging. I said in the last post that i would be completely screwed if i fail to clear the exam, but something worse happened. I failed in a series of exams, i failed to clear a single one of the three exams given and i failed to convert two other job interviews and by now you must be able to figure out y i had been out of blogging for so many days. My last post was in december and now we are in the mid of april, quite a time, but still the rotten memories are not fading.
People ask me what went wrong, i would have been a lot better if i had figured out what went wrong. Something is not just happening in my life. The same old line continues...."i feel like my life is stuck". I am tired of roaming from one place to another giving interviews but have never converted one till date. I am trying hard, trying really hard. I really don not know whether i am over qualified for some job or they just treat me like crap. I am tired of writing these boring posts criticising my fucked up luck and my fucked up interviews.
Mom says something wonderful is awaiting me out there. I am seriously gonna beat the bleady crap out of that thing when i finally meet it for making me wait all these days. My last interview was a disaster. Never imagined that i would not make it, and i can still feel my heart rate when i heard that i din't make it. I thought what the hell in the world could have happened wrong this time around. Man, it looked like a cake walk for god sake and yet i din't make it. My desperation amplified the fucking feeling but can still not believe that i failed to clear the last interview after clearing 3 rounds before that.
And then the same saga continued, i boarded a train back to this isolated place and kept thinking about my horrible days to follow. I came back, felt really bad for a few days and then once again started searching for new jobs. I am telling you it is really fucking hard to get a job with a good pay after college. You might well get a 4-5 lakh job but to get a job which pays you 50k a month, there is real competition out there. And now this post is a result of a boring afternoon where i have no work to do and i am really broken inside thinking about the terrible 4 months i have had in the new year. 2011 very well sucks but my fate sucks too.
The victim of another disaster,so do i call myself, what next? no idea man......may be i'll blog till i feel comfortable and then just dissapear somewhere....looks like a pretty good idea!!!!
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