Many days have passed by since i had given my CAT entrance examination and i was neither too happy nor too mad at myself after giving the test. Things moved along calmly henceforth and i nearly forgot the fact that the results were fast approaching. But the ignorance dint last long. Last week i visited home for a very small duration to attend the birthday of my cousin's twin babies. Everyone i met kept asking me about the results which were yet to come and made me realize that they were fast coming. An uncanny feeling in me started disturbing my day and night since then. Idiotic questions started taking birth in my mind as usually. Questions like what if i don't get the cut off percentile?, what if i don't get a call from any of the IIMs? "Dude i feel fucked up", the words which always slip from my mouth when i'm in a situation like this one and i really feel fucked up.
But what if i really clear the cut offs, the very thought gives me so much peace..man this is wonderful, either i'm going to be the happiest person in this world or i'm seriously going to screw up my new year. I said pain is good but it would be difficult to accept this very pain after you have strived for the success so long and defeat means a lot more than the very meaning itself. This thing is really eating up my mind, how should i get over this? i hope someone gives me a wonderful idea out of his box to help me get over this. But the pathetic thing is, no one cares to read this blog and help me,it is all me who reads it over and over again and if i expect some help from the readers then i would definitely be asking myself,but i can't help myself so there is no use of the last 6-7 lines i've been scribbling in this blog.
Dude give me something, for god sake give me a coke to drink, that would at least cool me down, give me some god damn thing that would make me feel better. HEHE i'll tell you a secret, i seriously started trusting god, every time i come across an idol or a picture of an almighty i start praying and i pray only one thing,please don't throw me into the dark, it will be fucking difficult to get out of that darkness, oh man give me something, give me a million dollars..give me a CBR 250cc...or give me a BMW X1...give me something for god sake....even a kiss from a beautiful angel would do....hehehe.....
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